My Step into Faith

So, two weeks ago, we spoke about my goals for my 20s. One of them, was to live a person centered life. This, in short, means revolving your life around the happiness of not only you, but of those who surround you.

Within the last month, I have found myself opening up to the idea of faith, of there potentially being a higher power. Now, my very atheist, logical side of my brain completely rejected this at first. But, I felt something pick me up from the path that I was walking, the path that was leading me to becoming a toxic person, and placed me onto a path of kindness and joy.

Now, I am not quite born again yet. I have attended Hillsong and I shall be attending every sunday that I can. But it is not quite the Jesus side of it that I love so much. It is appealing to this higher power I feel, I don’t know whether it is God or something else, but it is probably easier to call it a name than to not. I feel so much love in that room as we sing and worship, and it is something that I never knew I wanted or needed in my life before.

But this step into faith has really altered my way of thinking. It has opened me up to see moments where I can be kind, where I can help someone, and I find myself taking them, doing all I can to be a positive, kind person.

It has also taught me that I can focus on one thing at a time. I don’t have to be stressed and multitask in my life. I should enter the world with trust and not feel like I always need a backup. A perfect example of this is online dating. I have always felt that I need a backup to the guy that I have been speaking to, at whatever time. But when looking at it, I would hate to be someone’s backup. So, I stopped talking to everyone but the guy that I am interested in, and it has provided me with this sense of peace and this shedding of guilt that I have never known before.

So, as I say, I am unsure if I will ever be a christian, I might just be a person with faith. But I have taken a step into faith that something is out there and it has rewarded me ten fold, with so much love and guidance, that I am honestly shocked by it. So, I am going to keep as I am going, with my own personal relationship with whoever, or whatever is up there, and I will remain thankful for everything that I have been blessed with and keep self improving to become the kindest person that I can be.

Let me know if you have ever taken a step into faith.

Until next time,
Stay peachy,
Paige xx

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