The Lessons that 2017 Taught Me

So, 2017 is almost over, and I think globally, it has not been the best of years. It has not been the best of years personally, either. I have lost people this year, and struggled, both professionally and emotionally. But, with each struggle, came a lesson. So, I thought I would share with you a few of those lessons.

1. Think before you act
I’m thinking about one situation in particular with this one. I didn’t think and I got myself into a lose lose situation. It was the first time I had really ever been in one of those, and I know I am very lucky to have lived almost two decades before being in one. It caused me to hurt the people around me, and I lost some people I truly cared about. At the time, I thought there was no way around it. But, with guided reflection, I realised that I could have avoided everything if I had taken even a week to mull things over, and clear my mind. So, now, I am trying to take some serious time before making any big life decisions, and feeling much more self assured for it.

2. You are going to lose people
This one seems pretty obvious. But, this year, I lost a family member and it was the first time that I was old enough to truly feel the grief. I think loss seems like a very abstract concept, until you really feel it. I am slowly learning to let myself grieve, to allow myself time and reach out to people if I need to. I have learnt that you shouldn’t always use comedy to cover your suffering, which I have discovered I do a lot. I am learning, after many unhealthy attempts, how to get through this healthily. But this one is definitely a work in progress.

3. Stop getting so angry
I really don’t know where this has come from, but the second half of the year saw me ranting more than usual. I have an inkling that my ranting concerning men stemmed from my experiences with men throughout the year. Other topics that took my fancy were racism, Brexit, Trump, Sexism and many more. But, I’ve started to realise that it’s made me an angrier person than I want to be. So, I am taking steps towards lowering my number of rants, or keeping them for a forum where they will be useful.

4. You are not a failure
I have found myself this year feeling as if I am underachieving. Despite starting this website, and my new podcast, as well as my youtube channel and all of my uni work. I don’t quite know how to explain it, but I feel as if I am not doing enough. I decided to do Vlogmas in an attempt to feel like I was doing something everyday, and it did help. But it also proved to me that I should take a break every now and again and congratulate myself for all of the great things that I am doing.

5. Let go of embarrassment
This is one that I knew had to come at one point or another. Being a journalist and trying to push my own brand, there is no room for embarrassment. But, as a bigger girl, it is almost bred into you to feel embarrassed for making certain fashion choices. But, I decided this year that I didn’t care about that anymore. I wore the knee high socks, the berets, the space buns, and received nothing but praise. During Vlogmas, I know some people who know me will have watched and laughed. So what? Thanks for the view, my love.

So, those are just five of the lessons I learnt in 2017. I am sure the list could be longer, but these are the most important. I am going to come back with a list of my resolutions in the new year. Please comment which lessons you have learnt this year and what you think about mine.

Until next time,
Stay Peachy,
Paige xx

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